The Important Thing Is To Have Someone When Everything Is Crumbling Around You

The important thing is to have someone when everything is collapsing around you. A last hug, a last doll, the last fingers, a last skin when all the weight makes the vertebrae of our back crack. In these moments when we would be ready to make a pact with the Devil for misery, because basically we think that if there is something close to misery, it is us.

Simple mortals, more deadly than ever. It’s not about finding someone who can bring us to the surface, but rather someone who can stop our fall. May this person come to us one evening and tell us: I am all yours. I have my five senses: touch to take you in my arms, hearing to listen to you, teeth to bite you, soul to caress you, and hope to allow you to move forward.

There are three types of loneliness. The first type of loneliness, we have all already felt it; it is this loneliness that appears when you are surrounded by a group of people and you have the feeling that you are not connected to any of them. Just as we are disconnected from the air blowing through our hair or the sun warming us.

This type of loneliness normally occurs when a lot of people go missing and more are left than those who really matter to us. When the party ends and it has to resume. Stack glasses, eat leftover food, and empty open and unfinished bottles. When the music stops and you realize how lacking in the absence of insane vibes you could be. Empty.

There is a second type of loneliness, and it is the one felt by those who are the first or the last. Those who have been working on a project for a long time and who have a confused horizon in front of them, only sometimes clarified by faith. This loneliness makes us big, strong and tests our limits. It is about doing something which, then, we will know very well how we were able to do it. A mystery that is part of the vital, often disconcerting idiosyncrasy.

Complete the album with images of your self-esteem. These adventures of which we will be the last witnesses and which constitute these invisible roots for others who anchor us in life. Sometimes, we have told some of them, but we have the impression that no one will be able to understand, because the others have not lived what we have lived, have not been as we could have been.

The last type of loneliness is the worst; it’s about that loneliness that you can feel when you look around, look for people around you, but don’t see anyone. It’s having the feeling that as you go down the floors, people disappear. Until the moment comes when there is no one left.

You preferred to tell yourself that you are in a game of hide and seek and that you have the security to come up to the surface, like when you were small and you tried to stay underwater as long as possible without breathing . Now, without breathing, it’s not just the lungs that are burning… that’s when you wonder if you really want to come to the surface. Thinking that you are superfluous is not the same as feeling that no one is missing you.

There is then nothing more entertaining. You can open your eyes, but there is no light around you. Only shadows, smaller and smaller. You feel like you are pulling away and shouting in a transformed language, more and more different from your own. You start to tell yourself that if it was difficult for others to understand when you were close to them, now it is no longer just complicated but impossible …

Clench your fists and strike the water, as if escaping between your fingers it could form a real string. And sometimes… someone slows you down, surprises you, and lets you regain your faith. You feel silly to have lost it, to have overestimated the distance, but be careful, because there are few feelings that are more comforting than that of being truly important to someone. Enough to change direction.

However, this is not always the case.